it's so hard to let go of the memories
how is it possible to carry on when someone who was your life is no more
everything moves on, and you think you have too
but sometimes
when you're reading a book, listening to a song
reading a blog
it reminds you of him
and what you lost
and the aching feeling
the sick ache in your heart
just consumes you
and the tears can't help but fall
as you try to express your grief and hurt

take a step forward
take a step back

or maybe i never took that first step at all