hard candy

i was expecting a strange, warped, confusing show..if the impression my friend gave me was anything to go by.

i thought it was like retribution, albeit in a very drastic and almost insane sense. and yet, it seemed to make perfect sense at the same time. granted, life in prison changes people. but does it change people for the better or worse; does it make people see why their deeds were wrong, or is it simply like a cage in the zoo to keep away the hungry lion.

cutting off his ***** was perhaps the most direct preventive measure, and some might even think that those capable of such acts are fully deserving of their punishment. Chop off the hands of those who steal, remove the brains of those who choose to engage in mass murder, and the ***** of those cheat on their partners/prey on the innocent. wouldn't the world be better off this way? we wouldn't even have to waste precious bucks feeding/guarding prisoners.

Such 'straightforward' solutions have never occurred to me.
i do believe it has sth to do with my upbringing.

speaking of which, i seem to have dipped to a spiritual low (once again).
it takes much effort and discipline - something that never did happen during the period i attended liss. it seems that the nearer i reach shore, the harder i try, the more determined i am, the more desire i have to do so; and the converse is true. it seems to be so much easier to let the currents take me along, instead of fighting back.

now i have to start again, by keeping my eyes on the shore.