reading my patho tb, i never fail to be amazed by how wonderfully made we are. i love what i study and i'm glad i have the opportunity to do so. it's especially interesting to look at pictures of the various clinical conditions, though i jus stopped doing so when i came across a picture of caseous necrosis. it's really gross.

i'm afraid of the challenges my future job holds. it's tough enough knowing that my patient may have more knowledge about a disease/drug than i do, that lawsuits against docs are increasingly more common. Expectations of us are rising as well - we're no longer humans, but some know-it-all machine that can communicate in english, mandarin, teochew, hokkien, canto, malay, tamil etcetc. hey, if u're that bothered by this whole communication thing, isn't it more reasonable for YOU to learn ONE language (called english) instead of us having to know how to speak every damn language you can. i'm sorry for being so harsh. it's jus that sometimes, i feel that it's unfair to place so much weight on our shoulders. as it is, we already have insane working hours, and the pay compared to that is nothing. (though there are exceptions for instance the specialists).

Pple say, 'too bad, you're a doctor (to be)'. I say, wake up, and stop thinking that doctors are big-hearted, compassionate, self-sacrificial machines. we're humans too. we have a life, our family, our friends. I will definitely try my best to be as good a doctor as i can be. all i'm saying is pls stop giving us all that shit..all the expectations and lack of trust.