have no idea why i'm still up at 0243. my last paper of yr2 ended today and i came out feeling like crap. didn't study 2parts which came out cos my poor little brain was feeling so shitty mugging all the essays. i mugged two extra essays which weren't tested at all i really hate parkinsons and excitotoxicity now.ugh!! was feeling so stressed thinking about the rather difficult microb paper and now this nonsense, really couldn't take it after coming out of the hall. i just felt terribly screwed.

at least i got to go out after xxxxxxx days/weeks; it felt so weird to see buildings other than my factory-like school and feel the exciting bustle of the streets. for the past few weeks, i've been stuck at school, repeating my routine of studying, studying and more studying. felt really burnt out this sem, with waves of tests just crashing in my face. there was barely a moment's rest; just enough to keep all of us alive.

year2 isn't officially over for me, not until the much-hated viva list is out (and the supps list). please, please, please, don't let me get any of those. there's only an 11-day rest before the start of pre-clinics; followed by a 3 week break and then hello to year3. please, please, please let me pass and get to year3.

i think my blog makes for a depressing read; i'm like a whining piece of shit always complaining about unhappy stuff. Feeling very annoyed with myself right now, can't get anything right. my piano's horrid, my grades obviously suck, have no general knowledge, make a terrible friend, and losing much/all ability to think. much of what annoys me about myself seems really like aspects of my life which i have control over; that's what makes me even more annoyed. ugh. maybe things will get better when i move home. play more piano, study even more, read the papers more, call up my friends. right now, i feel very..unaccomplished and dissatisfied.

i've always been a lazy girl. i hated doing those i.q questions my parents made me do in primary school. i hated writing compositions cause i had to come up with my own content. i'm neither creative nor witty! i hated g.p because it made one rationalise. it forced me to see the many different angles of issues. i appreciated the beauty of it, but i disliked the process.

now, all i need to do is memorise (mostly). i rarely need to express an opinion about anything. i feel like i'm losing the ability to do so. ugh!

this has been my longest post ever i think. and after typing so much, i don't know what the point of it was.

to reward your patience, here's pics of me. hahaha.
(btw, it's the famous polar bear!! not me!). if u don't know who it is, yay. one up for me on current affairs! :) i only know nonsense like this.

Hi everyone! Nice to meet you.









Tsk, such a narcissist!












Good luck for exams, and hopefully soon all of us can say good riddance to year2.