I'm back from camp!
Pleased to have re-affirmed friendships and made new ones.
Most importantly, I now know that deciding not to be with nich was the best option for me . Since Monday, I've been feeling an aching feeling of sadness and loss. On recon. night though, I felt an intense sense of peace and calm which I've never experienced before. There were no more tears left in me, and there was no longer any inner struggle. I miss him, definitely, but there is now less reproach and self-doubt.