the days have been agonising.. I'm not even hoping for you to talk to me anymore. Even a simple hi or a smile will do. Because right now, there's absolutely nth. ZERO.

I am so not looking forward to spending the entire day in ot with you. It could be better than I think though. I guess. You probably will not even bother to small talk with me. And we can just watch the operations in dead silence. I refuse to cry over you anymore. It hurts like mad giving one-word answers, knowing that your questions are asked out of absolute necessity. And it also hurts like mad now that you're so cold.

And nic. I've been talking to sher about him many times now. I've never felt like such a rotten person in my entire life.