wish i could look into a crystal ball and see my future..what my life will be like 8 yrs down the road. it has always been so predictable..and yet, now i know nth abt the future. nothing seems certain, and i hate feeling like this.

i can't talk to mum. talking to her drives me nuts; it makes me want to cry, to scream at her, to shake her out of her senses. why is it so difficult to be reasonable and think, to rationalise like an adult.why mum? i feel so frustrated. it's driving me up the wall. i'll be happy to stay on campus and not quarrel with her everyday, it's a win-win situation. but at the end of the day, i can't keep escaping like that can i? they're both so over protective, it's irksome.

i see in my parents what i do not want to be. through them, i know what kind of parent i should or shouldn't be. if i should ever treat my kids like that, may memories of all these heated arguments come back to me like a rude slap.

concert just over 2 days ago..it was nice seeing everyone again, seniors juniors batchmates. it was abt the end of j2 that i realised so much shit was going on btwn my batchmates and to yl, i'm really sorry if i wasn't around to share your problems. as usual, des's so silly he nv fails to amuse me; it's really great knowing u man..u made such a damn big difference to my time in c.o. talking to hw makes me feel so shallow..and it's tho he can see right thru me..he always seems to be deep in thought and everything he says makes so much sense.

it's time to throw out all my damn insecurities and treasure every single moment.

can once in a lifetime happen twice?

this is really gonna be more like a diary, just sth that reminds me of what i'm doing, who i am, where i'm heading.

life's been speeding by ever since uni started, and year one's seen so many changes. there were sad and happy moments - and one fact remains, that i can never reverse all that has happened.

'can once in a lifetime happen twice?' Someone once told me, if it happens twice it's not called once in a lifetime. Yeah true, but that's totally missing the pt. this quote comes from serendipity, my favourite movie. it's all abt fate, serendipity, and finding the one you love. idealistic, naive, maybe even silly; very much describes me. i once had someone who was so much like me, and i'll never forget the memories we had. time passed, and things eventually ended. i do not deny that it was very much my fault. i missed him lots and i can never have him back. all i hope for is to be lucky enough to find that special someone who makes me so deliriously happy again. have i? perhaps.

i hate the way i write; it's simple and unsophisticated. reading others' blogs inspires me to write as well, not like a doctor with limited vocabulary and expressions. not like a doctor who scrawls across the records, eager to move on. i want to take the time to smell the flowers, be awed by the beauty of nature, and appreciate my loved ones.

what will the next 3 mths bring?