Mugging

oops, i forgot. And if anybody needs a mugging partner, please drop me a msg. I'll be happy to mug with you, as in really really mug mug mug. Not talk/gossip/giggle.

I screwed up for mass like never before! everybody claimed they never heard my mistakes..maybe they really didn't but self-knowledge of a mistake is one of the worst.
Discovered a new good-looking guy!! haha i told my best friend in there to go for him but she thinks i'm crazy.

Hm. There is this little bimbotic side of me which has never disappeared. I may put on all these silly appearances so as not to look dumb/air-headed but deep down, I am a silly little girl. I spend my money on frivolous thing, donate once in awhile to make myself feel better, have crushes on good-looking guys (that's totally sec. sch), giggle and giggle etc etc.

So many things are happening around me and all I do is whine(yes, whine), shop and dine. It's not that i don't care about the floods, earthquakes, bombs and everything bad. I really do; it's just that these things seem to be occurring so often that it no longer seems shocking to hear such news. Figures of people who perished are but figures; pictures of catastrophes are jolting, if only for an instant. A part of me has decided that if people want to design and make bombs and do such horrible things to each other, they deserve all this shit; if pple even have the conscience to embezzle funds for victims of disasters, maybe we're better off all dead. It seems that I can't do anything to help anyone, to change anything. So I simply go about doing all the things which luckier people like me enjoy and take for granted.

Perhaps next month, I'll get to see something new. I'm signing up for a day trip to Batam with some docs and dentists; they're setting up a clinic which will provide monthly medical services to the people there.

So some good advice for myself. Eat and be merry this Christmas, which is always a season of decadence and abundance (irony at its best). But remember those who have nothing at all, not even a warm meal or bed to rest in.

Oh! and of course I need to remember to study! 2 weeks for microB sounds horrifyingly little. But I only have myself to blame, going for the retreat, christmass dinner and carollings this week. and CAW meeting on saturday.

Damned all those idiots who scheduled the test on the first day of sch right after the hols. No wonder it's a stereotype that doctors/medical students are such bores.

Christmas gathering, anyone?
"No, sorry, I need to study!"

Retreat '06

Christmas is coming in 10 days!
My favourite season of all!!

So I guess it was good that I went for this year's tri-varsity retreat, which really brought me back to God. It made me reflect on the year gone by, and gave me a 2nd chance to keep my promises to Him. Everytime I go for reconciliation, it's a 2nd chance to start anew, to break free from all my sins. I must have had a thousand 2nd chances already. Despite all my inadequacies, He still loves me and hopes that I return. And that's the best I could ever ask for.

During one of the sharings, someone gave a pretty good analogy which compared God's wisdom with Man's. Mummy gave her little boy sweets, which he liked very much. He liked them so much he ate them everyday. Mummy then decided to take it away because too many sweets are bad. What the little boy couldn't understand was why Mummy would take sth so good away from Him. That really made me see things more clearly.

This was a totally new experience because I was put into a group in which I hardly knew anyone. Was quite annoyed at first because I felt it wasn't fair..but things do happen for a reason. Thanks to one of my grpmates, who gave me much-needed encouragement during the whole 3 days.

Christmas mass and dinner with the catholic pple on tuesday! Just bought a dress today..feel quite excited now. I'm playing for mass too. Hope everything goes well :)